Student Blog: Let It Go

I was in fourth grade when ‘Frozen’ took the world by [snow]storm. Sitting in the movie theater, so excited to see the new princess movie, I would’ve never guessed that Elsa held such valuable advice. When the musical adaptation made its way to LA, you better believe I was at the Pantages. Funny enough, it was the show that made me realize musical theatre was my passion, and is now the show that guides me through this industry: Let It Go. When you’re ready and willing to hear it, lyrics will be there to help you through.

Letting go (or lack of) is one of my biggest flaws. After I submit, the project consumes my every waking thought. I have this problem where I picture how my life would change if I book and what it could mean for my career. It makes the disappointment even worse and I end up mourning a life I never had. The mourning period ranges, depending on the project and how many stages of grief I go through. Rejections are much harder from community theatre, than they are from national tours. On the community theatre topic, if they don’t want you, that's okay. Don't force something that isn't organically happening, it most likely is not meant for you. Now, if we are at all alike, you will still wish you were cast and that’s okay. That’s your passion talking, but your passion is not fueled by people who don’t believe in you. There are so many beautiful opportunities waiting for you, and they won’t care that your small town theatre didn’t cast you. Let them go. 

For context (and a subtle brag because, hey, I’m still human and I’m proud of myself), I was not cast in my local fall show and, I’ll be 100% honest, I was disappointed, sad, and a little angry. I was on a high from being in their past season and had felt like I had my foot in the door. It was so rewarding to receive a callback for one of the leads and I thought they were finally seeing me, my growth, and my potential. They (figuratively) closed the door in my face. They may have seen my growth, but I was still missing something. I, selfishly and overconfidently, thought I had it in the bag and would at least be in the ensemble, but I was oh, so wrong. I had my pity party and felt so irritated for far too long. 

I wasn’t “good enough” for a local production, but I was “talented enough” to get to the second round of The Addams Family national tour. You are enough in every aspect and don’t accept anyone saying otherwise. Would you keep talking to someone who is having a conversation with another group? Stop searching for approval in a room that doesn’t want to listen or watch. Art is subjective and this industry is so much bigger than your small community theatre. They are big fish in a small pond, so swim to the ocean because there is bound to be someone who sees you and your talent for what it is: worthy of “making it”. If it does not bring you joy and growth, let it go. You’d be amazed at what opportunities present themselves, when you let go of negativity and doubt. 

Until next time,

Brynna

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"Can't hold me back anymore

Let it go"

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