Student Blog: Finding a Balance

Hey friends! The semester is starting to wind down a bit and I can’t quite believe it. I’ve already had my advising appointment to register for classes next semester and I can feel the clock ticking down. I can’t believe it is already November. Things are going by so fast yet so slow at the same time.

Something I have been struggling with a lot lately is wanting to do everything I can while I still have the ability too. I feel like this is my last chance to take all the classes I want to take, and be a part of productions here at my college and I have to do absolutely everything I can before I can’t. Because this time next year I won’t be here and I won’t have the same opportunities to do projects with my friends, or go out and get dinner with my roommates and such. But, on the other side of that coin, to be so real and honest, I am so tired and there is no realistic way that I can say yes to everything and not become burnt out. Ever since the show I was working on closed, She Kills Monsters, my evenings have been for the most part free, which is great, but I find myself more tired than when I did have rehearsal every night. I have so much homework to do and then I already have to start thinking about things for next semester-and it’s a lot. I’m currently trying to find a balance. And it’s hard.

Last time I was a senior, it was Spring of 2020 and a global pandemic was on the rise and what was just an extra week of spring break turned into the rest of my spring semester of senior year being done at home and all extracurricular activities were canceled indefinitely. So I didn’t exactly have this issue as a senior in high school, I didn’t have a choice. So this is a new thing.

I realize I can’t do everything. I am no superman and there is simply not enough time in the day. I also know that once I graduate, those opportunities won’t go away. I’m going to have a plethora of new things to audition for and apply for and go out and do, but it is never going to be quite the same as it is right now. I’ll never be in this place again with all of these people. I know that sounds a bit corny and sappy, but it’s true. 

In order to combat this, I’ve been trying to only say yes to things that I know are going to fulfil me and fill up my cup and not take away from it. Projects that interest me and that I want to do with everything in me. Hanging out with my friends, even if it means I’ll be a little extra tired the next day. Playing DND with my friends and waiting until the next day to finish that homework assignment. Letting go of one of my classes for next semester so I can have a more reasonable amount of credit hours. All of these things are going to help me fill my cup. They are going to help feel better mentally and physically. These little things will bring me the most joy and I don’t think I’ll regret the choices I’ve made.

This blog post was a little all over the place, I always want to try and be transparent and sometimes that means that I'm all over the place I don’t have all the answers, but I’m just going to do my best and that is all I can do. I’m a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, so no matter what I do or don’t do, it will all work out in the end and everything will be alright. Happy fall my friends, do things that will fill your cup. And as always, go do great things.